Weight is a problem for me....

 

   Something that I have to deal with in my life is my weight. It has always been a struggle for me. The above photo was taken in my Freshman year of High School at one of our dances....

   To me my weight was never really an issue. I was comfortable in my skin and there is not a lot of High School girls now a days that are comfortable with themselves....

   I was border line 300 lbs. and I was 16. I was considered to be "Obese" because I'm only 5'2" tall. Now border line 300 lbs. is a lot, but I wasn't always like this....

   When I was a lot younger like this picture (my left) I was a lot smaller. Now this picture was taken here in Florida. I was here for my aunts wedding in 1992 and I was about 5 or 6 years old then. But all threw out Elementary School I stayed rather small. Once I hit Middle School that was it. The weight just seemed to poor on me for some reason.... 

    People made fun of me because of my weight. I think that it is very common for people who have curves (as I call it). And when people make fun of us I don't think that they really understand how much they are hurting our feelings. I've been called "Miss Piggy", "Fat-so", "Fat-ass", ect. you say it, I have probably been called it. Threw out the years myself confidence level just kept getting smaller and smaller....

   Now this next photo (my right) was taken on March 19, 2010, and this is what my current weight is....I can't believe I'm saying this out loud....I have hit 240 lbs. this is the most that I have been since Freshman year. From Sophomore year until I graduated I was down to about 235 lbs. and it fluctuated between that and 229 lbs....

   I am very disappointed in myself that I even let myself get back up to my current weight, but I told myself that in 2010 I am doing things different! So I have been working out a lot. Now when this picture was taken last week I have not re-weighed myself since I started working out. The last time I weighed myself was around January to February and I have been working out since February 26, 2010....

   So next Friday on April 2, 2010 I will weigh myself again. I feel that I should wait another week before I weigh myself because I feel that if someone constantly weighs themselves that they will get obsessed with weighing themselves, especially if they are not seeing the results that they want to....

   Now remember loosing weight it tough work. Its not going to disappear over night, and I have decided to loose weight the old fashioned way by working out. I'm NOT using any diet products to "Help me loose wight", because I personally think that they don't work and if they do work I fell that if you were to stop using them that you would gain all the weight that you loose back....And I don't want that to happen....

   So here is a start to a long road ahead of me....Wish me luck and to anyone that is currently trying to loose weight, good for you! Stay at it because it will payoff and you will feel so much better about yourself when its all done and over with....

I'm here for support if you guys need it!

Until Next Time....

Remember Me

Oh My Robert! Remember Me was Amazing! I absolutely loved the movie! It was so good!

Remember me is a romantic drama set in New York City during the summer of 2001, where Tyler (Pattinson), a rebellious young man, meets Ally (de Ravin) through a twist of fate. Her spirit helps him heal after a family tragedy, though soon the circumstances that brought them together threaten to tear them apart....(http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1403981/plotsummary *Please Note-Spoil alert*) 

The movie is rated PG-13 and it runs about 1 1/2 to 2 hours long....It has a SHOCKING twist at the end that I will NOT say what it is, because I do not want to spoil it for those that want to see it but have not yet....

I truley recomend that you go and see this movie....It literally made me cry! :'(

I rate this movie 5 stars *****!....The story line was great it seems like something that people can relate to and the acting is soooooo on point its amazing!....

Rob's ability to act is pure amazsing! I have loved his work before the Twilight Saga and I can tell you this I will always love his work!....He truley can act and his performance is flawless and completely beleiveable!....Its a side of Rob that we haven't seen before and it goes to show you that he will not be just known as Edward Cullen, but that he will be known as a very talented actor!...

So go to the movies and watch Remember Me! You wont be dissapointed....And so I leave you with this, my favorite quote from the movie:

"Our finger prints don't fade from the lives we touch." -Tyler (Pattinson in Remember Me)

Until Next Time....

When your body tells you something...LISTEN TO IT!

Okay so have you ever gotten the feeling that you should move or that something doesn't feel right to you? Well tonight that happened to me....

I was driving home from my class and I was going to stop at the food store so that I could pick up some milk that we needed at my house....I was in the lane to go straight because I was going to stop at the food store by my house....But something just didn't feel right....I can't describe how I felt all I know is that I was coming up on a red light and something was telling me to get in the left hand turn lane and go to the food store that was right there....

So I hesitated for a moment but my body was still telling me this wasn't right and that I should be turning now....So I finally decided to get into the left hand lane and go to the food store that was right there....Just as I was about to turn I heard it....A truck slammed into the back end of the car that was in front of me not only moments before the impact....

It was very scary....My thoughts and prayers are with those families....I was not able to get a picture of the crash due to the fact that I was turning and I did not want to cause another accident....

The picture below is not the actual accident but it is one that I found online and this is what the accident sort of looked like....This is why my body told me to turn....

 

AGAIN THIS IS NOT THE ACTUAL ACCIDENT I WAS NOT ABLE TO GET A PICTURE OF IT BUT THE ACCIDENT HAD A RESULT LIKE THIS ONE.... 

So the next time that you get the feeling that something is not right or that your body is telling you that you should not be there at that particular spot for some reason....Then MOVE or LISTEN to what your body is telling you/what you are feeling about a certain situation....Because your life could be on the line....

I should have been in that accident tonight but my body told me that something was wrong and that I needed to move....Call it ESP....Call me crazy....Call it whatever you want to all I know is that for some reason my life was spared to night....I'm here on this earth for some reason....I'm happy to be a live!...

Do me a favor and next time you are in the car driving....DO NOT TALK/TEXT ON THE PHONE AND TRY NOT TO DO ANYTHING THAT CAN DISTRACT YOUR FOR EVEN A SINGLE MOMENT....YOU OR SOMEONES LIFE COULD BE AT STAKE.... 

Please Be Safe!
Until Next Time....